Yesterday morning I told Lucas it was the first day of spring. “It’s SPRING? I’m so excited!” he exclaimed and started dancing all around my bedroom. “Daddy, Daddy, it’s SPRING!” he yelled. He climbed up on my bed and peeked out the window. “Can we plant our flowers today?” he asked. “It looks warm!”
We’re going to have to wait another month or two to plant our flowers here in Michigan. It was not warm yesterday in spite of the sunshine (unless you consider the 30s and 40s warm). Regardless, I share Lucas’s enthusiasm for spring! He’s most excited about flowers and veggies. I’m most excited for cold and flu season to end.
I was hoping I’d be feeling normal by now and through the adjustment phase that I experienced after getting off antibiotic and steroid treatment for an infection I had in February. Unfortunately, things never improved, and after about 10 days of feeling sick, I landed back at the doctor last Thursday. I had been having frequent coughing fits, was sleeping poorly, and was feeling exhausted, sore, and short of breath most of the time. My FEV1 was down only one point from where it was at my February appointment, but in Feburary it was down six points due to the infection I had. So although it was a big relief to see it hadn’t plummeted any further, it’s not where it should be. I didn’t have signs of a secondary infection, and the doctor concluded that the main culprit for my troubles was my asthma, likely kicked up by yet another virus. Friday I started back on steroids to address the asthma. My body will heal from the virus on its own, but that will take some time.
I’m not sure yet how long I will be on steroids. I’ve definitely seen improvement but still have a ways to go. My doctor is having me check in with him regularly and is adjusting my dosage based on my progress. I’m looking foward to feeling like me again soon. Hopefully by the time it’s warm enough to plant our gardens I’ll be healthy and strong and cold and flu season and all this illness will be a distant memory.
Steroids are a great blessing when you need them but have lots of side effects. Thankfully the worst side effects aren’t a problem when you take them for a short period of time. I do, however, have trouble falling asleep at a decent time at night and alternate between moments of having jittery energy and periods where an exhaustion washes over me and my brain feels foggy. I felt tired this weekend so we played quietly at home. Lucas is very into nature. Currently forests and bodies of water along with their native animals are of greatest interest to him. He created a forest out of a tree house toy and played with that for a while at home. When he was done being calm and quiet, Jaime took him out in search of a real forest and stream adventure and left me at home to rest.
I was sad to miss the adventure but hearing about it and seeing these pictures brought me lots of joy. Lucas also brought me a stick from the forest so I wouldn’t be completely left out. It’s funny how a soggy, dirty old stick can be a precious, heart-warming gift. I’m thankful he thinks of me and wants to include me even when I’m sidelined by my health. I’m hoping with the arrival of spring and the help of these steroids, next time I’ll be digging in the mud right along with my boys 🙂
That night, Jaime was snuggling in bed with Lucas as he was falling asleep. At one point Lucas rolled over and whispered, “Daddy, I’m really happy.” Then he closed his eyes and went to sleep. Oh the beauty of joy mixed with peace and contentment! It blessed me to hear those words from my four year old. These frequent illnesses have been challenging for all of us, but there’s a hope that fills our hearts and we are reminded over and over that we have so many things to be grateful for. Today I’m thankful for joy, peace, and contentment in the midst of struggle.
And for spring, steriods, streams and sticks 🙂